It was two years ago today that I quit smoking. At the time I was single so thought it would be funny to quit on Valentines day so I could not forget the anniversary.
I had quit the nicotine gum for a while but my step father passed a year plus ago. I was going to smoke over all the stress so I decided to chew the gum again and have not quit the gum again YET.
I am still single and looking on match, working out as much as I can force myself to the gym and playing WOW like an addict.
Happy Valentines day
(Even if it is a holiday made by stores if someone is treated better because of this fabricated marketing day then that's good enough for me)
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Friday, February 10, 2006
Fatal flaws
I consider a fatal flaws many things but for this entry I am defining it as a personality trait that is not currently a standard I like for myself.
I have a few personality traits that I know of that are flawed in a serious manor.
Two of these traits I have recently been reminded of.
The first is I have a problem with confrontation unless I am angry. Anger is just a horrible way to deal with ANYTHING. Its disappointing to see myself have so much trouble with confrontational situations. Also, I truly despise this flaw in me, the flaw sickens me. I know if I would simply be a man the situation that needs confrontation would work out leagues better. Instead I let the situation build until anger rules me and then I act...gross and sad.
The second is a trait that I assume comes from a lacking in respect. For now I can only describe it with the following.
There are a 6 women I have meet in my life so far that I am aware this problem occurs with. When I am near any of these 6 women I do not act right.
Meaning that I act uncharacteristically which I assume is because I have a crush on these women for no real reason.
That in itself is disturbing but the problem compounds quickly because I have then classically ignored subtle rejection from these women. Furthermore, I continue to pine after them even after rejection is confirmed due to my lack of will power.
Lacking will power is another personality flaw that ties the two flaws above together.
However, these two flaws are a problem and they make me sad. I assume my conflict with these two flaws is most likely tied into a goal that my life is attempting to achieve. If so I have failed so far.
Either way I am little disheartened today and mostly due to the second flaw I mentioned above so I wanted to share.
Write at you again soon.
I have a few personality traits that I know of that are flawed in a serious manor.
Two of these traits I have recently been reminded of.
The first is I have a problem with confrontation unless I am angry. Anger is just a horrible way to deal with ANYTHING. Its disappointing to see myself have so much trouble with confrontational situations. Also, I truly despise this flaw in me, the flaw sickens me. I know if I would simply be a man the situation that needs confrontation would work out leagues better. Instead I let the situation build until anger rules me and then I act...gross and sad.
The second is a trait that I assume comes from a lacking in respect. For now I can only describe it with the following.
There are a 6 women I have meet in my life so far that I am aware this problem occurs with. When I am near any of these 6 women I do not act right.
Meaning that I act uncharacteristically which I assume is because I have a crush on these women for no real reason.
That in itself is disturbing but the problem compounds quickly because I have then classically ignored subtle rejection from these women. Furthermore, I continue to pine after them even after rejection is confirmed due to my lack of will power.
Lacking will power is another personality flaw that ties the two flaws above together.
However, these two flaws are a problem and they make me sad. I assume my conflict with these two flaws is most likely tied into a goal that my life is attempting to achieve. If so I have failed so far.
Either way I am little disheartened today and mostly due to the second flaw I mentioned above so I wanted to share.
Write at you again soon.
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Hey Now
I really hate the look of my blog and I need to change it. I was messing around with the templates and lost all my cool links and the formatting is making me sick. I have been to lazy to bother to figure out how to make it look and feel like I want it to.
Anyway, besides that happy new year!. I have a new job now that is GREAT, the commute is GREAT, the pay is GREAT I love it. I am single again and back on match. Playing WOW most of the time and working out at the gym.
I was reading over some comments and found it strange that I got an ad in one comment LOL
Well that's all I have to say for now except i am working slowly on my lazy nature. i mean how else does a lazy man work if not slow ? No really, I am trying to make changes and perhaps sooner then latter they will reflect here in my blog so over all Hey Now :)
Anyway, besides that happy new year!. I have a new job now that is GREAT, the commute is GREAT, the pay is GREAT I love it. I am single again and back on match. Playing WOW most of the time and working out at the gym.
I was reading over some comments and found it strange that I got an ad in one comment LOL
Well that's all I have to say for now except i am working slowly on my lazy nature. i mean how else does a lazy man work if not slow ? No really, I am trying to make changes and perhaps sooner then latter they will reflect here in my blog so over all Hey Now :)
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