Yeah that is me. I am not always so nice and I have my problems, perversions, OCD behavior and jerky moods like everyone but over all I am Mr. Nice Guy. Sometimes it’s tiring especially when I am trying to date and sometimes Mr. Nice Guy fails all together. Being Mr. Nice Guy does not add up to much more then Nice, like for example I am not as interesting or exciting as I could dream a Mr. Nice Guy would be. In addition, I would think Mr. Nice Guy would have a very busy social life. Well no I do not because beside my WOW friends, IM friends, phone friends and few friends I hang out with in person I would be alone.
In reality I sum up to a guy that feels guilty and wants to treat everyone how I would like to be treated. I am not the most guidable guy, or romantic guy, I am just plan ole Mr. Nice Guy. We all have something and there it is. My something is being Mr. Nice Guy.
Can I say that anymore in this blog entry?
I sound pretty negative today and lacking confidence. I have started to feel like that over the past few hours culminating with this blog entry. I was just really dumb with money today and I am over skeptical about my New Years Eve plans. There you have it, if these are my worse problems then my life is damned good.
I love Sci Fi, Aimee, History channel, Discovery channel, Hi Def TV, My bird, family, friends, and good health. I would love to hike more and learn how to camp and enjoy it. Get into better shape without working to hard, have a girl friend, make enough money that buying a condo would not seem outrageous.
I plan on buying all new furniture, beating my fear to fly, saving a sizable amount of money, sailing, and going on a cruise to an island. I hope to do this all this next year.
I miss good friend Ed (Who died flipping his truck about 5 years ago), Asher (Who killed himself many years ago), my grand mothers (both living reasonably full lives and did not die in pain), my grand fathers (One died when I was very young, the other when I was 18), and in some ways I will always miss my step father (Who died a few years ago).
If I had a super power right now that were reasonable it would be to teleport anything anyplace or I would be a werewolf (But I would not want to kill people, full control over the transformation and it would not be painful.)
If I were rich I would travel the world and meet people, hang out and learn everything I could about the people I meet and their cultures. In the end my rich life would hopefully help me grown with the people that I meet and life would be enhanced for me and them.
That is all I have for now, confusing eh?
DKC
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Happy Holidays
I hope everyone enjoys there families, friends in health and happiness.
Happy Holidays.
Happy Holidays.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
Not Done Yet
I went on a date with the crossing guard last night. I spent a reasonable amount at a hibachi place but the food was good, sadly the lady did not seem to enjoy it as much as me. To make things worse I was not dressed half as nicely as I should have been.
Before the date a lady I am chatting with on Yahoo tells me to make sure to make plenty of eye contact, touch the small of her back and try to touch her arms especially the upper part. This lady and I have been chatting for a bit and she reads my blog, so she is aware that I have been having a problem getting women past being friends and by doing as she said I would make the women I am out with more aware of my dating interest.
After dinner we drove around and talked a lot then went to a dance club on a boat. I hardly know how to dance but I figured why not go since I have been a homebody lately. So the crossing guard and I danced a little and went home around 1am.
I dropped her off and she refused a hug good night.... Nice! However, this time I know she is aware of my intentions due to the advice of my female Yahoo chat friend. The problem is that the Crossing guard is simply a prude and not very experienced with dating (even less then I am, seems the crossing guard is a real old school style lady).
If by some chance I am wrong and she is really just using me as a cash patsy do not worry because I already smell that angle but I will take things as they come and play the game a bit longer for now with the crossing guard.
As for the other lady my friend set me up with and meet once so far. Had an excellent conversation yesterday before my date with the crossing guard. I feel a bit more hopeful something may work out with her but we will see.
My evaluation is I am still doing something for new years with the crossing guard and I am still hopeful for the other lady my friends set me with. Overall nothing has changed though; I am debut free and home alone Saturday December 23. Though I could have gone out with friends tonight, I wanted to stay home because I am feeling introspective.
Besides that I had a dream that I wrote a huge blog entry and it was very interesting and some author read it and contacted me asking to publish some of my ramblings. That is not really what I want to happen but I think lately I have been worried about what my intentions are with writing so personally in a public space. I have also wondered if writing here has served any purpose. Was anyone reading? Did anyone care? Did I help anyone or make them smile? These questions have rumbled around my head and I guess inspired my dream. I then spoke to a friend that is a blogger and she basically said to forget all that and write for me.
DKC
Before the date a lady I am chatting with on Yahoo tells me to make sure to make plenty of eye contact, touch the small of her back and try to touch her arms especially the upper part. This lady and I have been chatting for a bit and she reads my blog, so she is aware that I have been having a problem getting women past being friends and by doing as she said I would make the women I am out with more aware of my dating interest.
After dinner we drove around and talked a lot then went to a dance club on a boat. I hardly know how to dance but I figured why not go since I have been a homebody lately. So the crossing guard and I danced a little and went home around 1am.
I dropped her off and she refused a hug good night.... Nice! However, this time I know she is aware of my intentions due to the advice of my female Yahoo chat friend. The problem is that the Crossing guard is simply a prude and not very experienced with dating (even less then I am, seems the crossing guard is a real old school style lady).
If by some chance I am wrong and she is really just using me as a cash patsy do not worry because I already smell that angle but I will take things as they come and play the game a bit longer for now with the crossing guard.
As for the other lady my friend set me up with and meet once so far. Had an excellent conversation yesterday before my date with the crossing guard. I feel a bit more hopeful something may work out with her but we will see.
My evaluation is I am still doing something for new years with the crossing guard and I am still hopeful for the other lady my friends set me with. Overall nothing has changed though; I am debut free and home alone Saturday December 23. Though I could have gone out with friends tonight, I wanted to stay home because I am feeling introspective.
Besides that I had a dream that I wrote a huge blog entry and it was very interesting and some author read it and contacted me asking to publish some of my ramblings. That is not really what I want to happen but I think lately I have been worried about what my intentions are with writing so personally in a public space. I have also wondered if writing here has served any purpose. Was anyone reading? Did anyone care? Did I help anyone or make them smile? These questions have rumbled around my head and I guess inspired my dream. I then spoke to a friend that is a blogger and she basically said to forget all that and write for me.
DKC
Friday, December 15, 2006
Today
Is Friday and my vacation is almost over. I went to Syracuse, then came home and hung out until today. I will be heading out to CT for an over night with my best friend.
On Wednesday that just past I went on a date, well more a first meeting. It went pretty well the lady is very pretty, so much so it was distracting. I did not feel horribly interesting and I am not sure how to not be a 'friend' and become a person she would date.
I hope I can figure it out, but I have been single for a while and have had problems getting and having romantic relationships.
I also feel strange trying to make dates with the other lady ie 'the crossing guard' but I figure I am still single and not kissing anyone. If I kiss either of these two women I will back off on the other.
However, it still feels weird being single so long then having two pretty women that want to date me.
Besides that my bird is still sadly plucking her feathers and she looks horrible :(. I will have to focus on this problem 100% next week.
Good news is I am now debut free for the New Year. I hope this New Year brings me a relationship, health and happiness.
On Wednesday that just past I went on a date, well more a first meeting. It went pretty well the lady is very pretty, so much so it was distracting. I did not feel horribly interesting and I am not sure how to not be a 'friend' and become a person she would date.
I hope I can figure it out, but I have been single for a while and have had problems getting and having romantic relationships.
I also feel strange trying to make dates with the other lady ie 'the crossing guard' but I figure I am still single and not kissing anyone. If I kiss either of these two women I will back off on the other.
However, it still feels weird being single so long then having two pretty women that want to date me.
Besides that my bird is still sadly plucking her feathers and she looks horrible :(. I will have to focus on this problem 100% next week.
Good news is I am now debut free for the New Year. I hope this New Year brings me a relationship, health and happiness.
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Dating
Dating is so strange to me and I am obviously not very good at dating since I have a long history of being single and having short relationships.
So here is my story.
My friends are setting me up with this one lady and she called me last night. We talked for a while but I have a cold and cut the conversation off early. Anyway, the conversation went fine I think and there are hopes for more. I hope I was interesting and inquisitive enough for our first chat...
Then randomly today the cute cross guard left a note on my car today for me to call her. I called her and she asked me out for a new years eve party with her friends and brother. I said yes but I am worried that since it would be our first date and she has said no to me in the past she could just be making me her cash patsy.
So, I am going to try and take her out at least once before the party.
So thats what is going on this week so far. Very exciting, very confusing and overall interesting to have two women appear out of the blue. I hope one of the two works out for me. That would be nice for a change.
Besides that I have vacation next week and I am going to see friends in Syracuse and then Connecticut.
Good luck to me and be well
So here is my story.
My friends are setting me up with this one lady and she called me last night. We talked for a while but I have a cold and cut the conversation off early. Anyway, the conversation went fine I think and there are hopes for more. I hope I was interesting and inquisitive enough for our first chat...
Then randomly today the cute cross guard left a note on my car today for me to call her. I called her and she asked me out for a new years eve party with her friends and brother. I said yes but I am worried that since it would be our first date and she has said no to me in the past she could just be making me her cash patsy.
So, I am going to try and take her out at least once before the party.
So thats what is going on this week so far. Very exciting, very confusing and overall interesting to have two women appear out of the blue. I hope one of the two works out for me. That would be nice for a change.
Besides that I have vacation next week and I am going to see friends in Syracuse and then Connecticut.
Good luck to me and be well
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Happy Thanksgiving
It’s a good day for me. I enjoyed myself and my family today and I could only wish everyone was as fortunate.
DKC
DKC
Monday, November 20, 2006
Happy Birthday to me!
Today is my 36th birthday! Normally around this time of year I try to do a complete review of who I am what I did this year and what I would like to do and improve on.
More on that some other day for now my only 2.5 birthday wishes are for
1) Continued good health
2) My bird to stop plucking her feathers
..
2.5) Be nice to meet the right lady for me to date.
Be Well
More on that some other day for now my only 2.5 birthday wishes are for
1) Continued good health
2) My bird to stop plucking her feathers
..
2.5) Be nice to meet the right lady for me to date.
Be Well
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Nothing to say
I do not have anything to say today that is horribly interesting. I was reading over my old posts and saw that my blog anniversary is coming up.
I enjoy the look of my blog a bit more but it still feels like its still missing some personal touches. Either way I should be posting more now that I enjoy the look of my blog again.
No big plans for tonight but I am off work tomorrow.
I enjoy the look of my blog a bit more but it still feels like its still missing some personal touches. Either way I should be posting more now that I enjoy the look of my blog again.
No big plans for tonight but I am off work tomorrow.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
No News
I am not that interesting I guess.
Nothing much is new with me really. To review basically, I gained some weight, lost some hair, still single with a bird that now plucks her feathers (Frown) and staring down my 36th birthday in the next few days.
I am considering buying a GPS for driving and a separate one for hiking.
Besides that I have a medium term length plan to buy a condo next year.
I am staring a new psychiatrist this week and I am trying to focus on finding new friends that want to 'do' instead of watch.
In the end, I am more lazy then I wish and I am rather tried of being single. I have determined that my single life is due to me 100% and perhaps the therapist can help?
On the upside. I am training for a hike this upcoming spring and I am almost 100% out of debut for the third time in my life.
Nothing much is new with me really. To review basically, I gained some weight, lost some hair, still single with a bird that now plucks her feathers (Frown) and staring down my 36th birthday in the next few days.
I am considering buying a GPS for driving and a separate one for hiking.
Besides that I have a medium term length plan to buy a condo next year.
I am staring a new psychiatrist this week and I am trying to focus on finding new friends that want to 'do' instead of watch.
In the end, I am more lazy then I wish and I am rather tried of being single. I have determined that my single life is due to me 100% and perhaps the therapist can help?
On the upside. I am training for a hike this upcoming spring and I am almost 100% out of debut for the third time in my life.
Saturday, November 11, 2006
Bye GrandMother
My GrandMother past away this last week on Tuesday 11/07/06. She was a stubborn, loner but a good lady and I will miss her.
Bye :(
Bye :(
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Quit Smoking
It was two years ago today that I quit smoking. At the time I was single so thought it would be funny to quit on Valentines day so I could not forget the anniversary.
I had quit the nicotine gum for a while but my step father passed a year plus ago. I was going to smoke over all the stress so I decided to chew the gum again and have not quit the gum again YET.
I am still single and looking on match, working out as much as I can force myself to the gym and playing WOW like an addict.
Happy Valentines day
(Even if it is a holiday made by stores if someone is treated better because of this fabricated marketing day then that's good enough for me)
I had quit the nicotine gum for a while but my step father passed a year plus ago. I was going to smoke over all the stress so I decided to chew the gum again and have not quit the gum again YET.
I am still single and looking on match, working out as much as I can force myself to the gym and playing WOW like an addict.
Happy Valentines day
(Even if it is a holiday made by stores if someone is treated better because of this fabricated marketing day then that's good enough for me)
Friday, February 10, 2006
Fatal flaws
I consider a fatal flaws many things but for this entry I am defining it as a personality trait that is not currently a standard I like for myself.
I have a few personality traits that I know of that are flawed in a serious manor.
Two of these traits I have recently been reminded of.
The first is I have a problem with confrontation unless I am angry. Anger is just a horrible way to deal with ANYTHING. Its disappointing to see myself have so much trouble with confrontational situations. Also, I truly despise this flaw in me, the flaw sickens me. I know if I would simply be a man the situation that needs confrontation would work out leagues better. Instead I let the situation build until anger rules me and then I act...gross and sad.
The second is a trait that I assume comes from a lacking in respect. For now I can only describe it with the following.
There are a 6 women I have meet in my life so far that I am aware this problem occurs with. When I am near any of these 6 women I do not act right.
Meaning that I act uncharacteristically which I assume is because I have a crush on these women for no real reason.
That in itself is disturbing but the problem compounds quickly because I have then classically ignored subtle rejection from these women. Furthermore, I continue to pine after them even after rejection is confirmed due to my lack of will power.
Lacking will power is another personality flaw that ties the two flaws above together.
However, these two flaws are a problem and they make me sad. I assume my conflict with these two flaws is most likely tied into a goal that my life is attempting to achieve. If so I have failed so far.
Either way I am little disheartened today and mostly due to the second flaw I mentioned above so I wanted to share.
Write at you again soon.
I have a few personality traits that I know of that are flawed in a serious manor.
Two of these traits I have recently been reminded of.
The first is I have a problem with confrontation unless I am angry. Anger is just a horrible way to deal with ANYTHING. Its disappointing to see myself have so much trouble with confrontational situations. Also, I truly despise this flaw in me, the flaw sickens me. I know if I would simply be a man the situation that needs confrontation would work out leagues better. Instead I let the situation build until anger rules me and then I act...gross and sad.
The second is a trait that I assume comes from a lacking in respect. For now I can only describe it with the following.
There are a 6 women I have meet in my life so far that I am aware this problem occurs with. When I am near any of these 6 women I do not act right.
Meaning that I act uncharacteristically which I assume is because I have a crush on these women for no real reason.
That in itself is disturbing but the problem compounds quickly because I have then classically ignored subtle rejection from these women. Furthermore, I continue to pine after them even after rejection is confirmed due to my lack of will power.
Lacking will power is another personality flaw that ties the two flaws above together.
However, these two flaws are a problem and they make me sad. I assume my conflict with these two flaws is most likely tied into a goal that my life is attempting to achieve. If so I have failed so far.
Either way I am little disheartened today and mostly due to the second flaw I mentioned above so I wanted to share.
Write at you again soon.
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Hey Now
I really hate the look of my blog and I need to change it. I was messing around with the templates and lost all my cool links and the formatting is making me sick. I have been to lazy to bother to figure out how to make it look and feel like I want it to.
Anyway, besides that happy new year!. I have a new job now that is GREAT, the commute is GREAT, the pay is GREAT I love it. I am single again and back on match. Playing WOW most of the time and working out at the gym.
I was reading over some comments and found it strange that I got an ad in one comment LOL
Well that's all I have to say for now except i am working slowly on my lazy nature. i mean how else does a lazy man work if not slow ? No really, I am trying to make changes and perhaps sooner then latter they will reflect here in my blog so over all Hey Now :)
Anyway, besides that happy new year!. I have a new job now that is GREAT, the commute is GREAT, the pay is GREAT I love it. I am single again and back on match. Playing WOW most of the time and working out at the gym.
I was reading over some comments and found it strange that I got an ad in one comment LOL
Well that's all I have to say for now except i am working slowly on my lazy nature. i mean how else does a lazy man work if not slow ? No really, I am trying to make changes and perhaps sooner then latter they will reflect here in my blog so over all Hey Now :)
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