Happy New Year!

Happy New Year is all I have time to say for now.

Be Well!

DKC

Catalyst or Changer

I define catalyst as the tool used in a change and I define changer as the total event using the tools.

In my life it seems that’s I am often a catalyst to change but never the changer. For a long time I had a problem with being used by some power to facilitate a change. Recently someone told me that I need to surrender to my catalyst like attributes therefore becoming more effective at it. I have thought a long time on this advice and I just remember a book serious I have been reading Robert Jordan’s Wheel of Time. In this book serious Mr. Jordan brings up a similar theory were women had to surrender to something and men have to fight it in order for the best results. Overall, I partly agree with Mr. Jordan and the person that told me to surrender. I know that by surrendering to “the forces of life” that make me a catalyst everything will flow easier and have more impact. I also know that I can not just allow myself to be “used” all of the time. I yearn to be the change creator or I try to help direct the change thinking this change would not be occurring if I was not here. This thinking is what makes me male and human and is mostly wrong but a small undetermined part is right. Maybe some day in the future I can figure out how I can be at harmony with the change and take an active part while being a catalyst. For now my silly thoughts muddle things and create problems for the change that I am part of.
That same person told me that I need to focus on what and why I am in the situation rather then what the situation is and how the person is going to be altered. This makes insane amount of sense and I can not think of how I can go wrong approaching the situations as open minded as I can. However, I find it hard to just let something happen or enjoy being part of the phenomenon. I also have not always realized that I am learning or what is going on with me while the circumstances are occuring.

DKC

Tim in Iraqi Update

A good friend of mine and a freind of Tim that I just posted about wrote the following

"
I just got word from Tim's Mom. Tim is in the air and on his way home now.
So he'll be in the States for the New year. Yippie!!!!

Barry"

So, it seems that Tim will be safe in the USA shortly!!!

DKC

Iraqi

One of my best friends in Iraqi with the army wrote the following
"
Hay all,

Well.....finally I'm am inbound. Actual date is not known but soon.
I'm in Kuwait now and should be feet-dry in the good old USA in the
next 2 weeks. I'll try to get in touch once I get there but I expect
that I'll not have e-mail or anything like that. You'll get the
word...it just might take some time. Love to all


Tim"

I can not wait till he is home safe!!! {SMILE}

DKC

Mistakes

I make plenty of mistakes. In fact, I could say I have made so many mistakes that I am a master at making mistakes. I am not being negative, pessimistic or lacking confidence. I am just stating an obvious observation with comparing my life and the choices I make or the situations I get into either voluntary or not versus other people.

I have more to say on this subject and may write about this topic some other day but I am tried and its been a long day.

DKC

Tsunamis

Prey for the families of the lost or deceased do to this terrible Tsunamis in East Asia.

Tsunamis

DKC

A_mal_gama

This Blog A_mal_gama has a description that I loved "even if the VOICES aren't real they have some good ideas".

That just makes a lot of strange sense to me. She goes on to say a bunch of other things in spanish that I had to go to great lenghts to get her blog translated. Basically she has some deep thoughts for such a young looking lady. I wish her well.

DKC

Blog Time

I do not know how long I am going to keep up with posting every day. I also do not know what time of the day or night I will post.

For example "The Anxious Bench" (all Links on the right) posts when she has something to say and usually I find her posts most fascinating. The "Nurse 2 Be" posts almost every day like I do but she seems to say things that seem more interesting then my ramble (Smile). The "Ladienyte's Ramblings" seems similar to my posts but I personally love to read her writing because I feel more connected to her, her family and our mutual friends that live near her but about 4 hours away from me. Finally, "The Best Page in the Universe" does not seem to post anymore and I have no clue who he is but he has written some funny stuff. All in all, I am saying I am not sure that I will have any schedule or style in most of my posting. My point for posting is that I hope someone may find what I have to say as funny or helpful.

Be Well!
DKC

The Gym

You would think I would find or make that need or determination which brings a person in to the gym. In fact I had "it" 2 years ago and for about 2 weeks a few days ago. I know I should go to the gym, I know its costing me a lot a month, I even know that by not going today I am failing a test of the day. (You know the test from the movie young guns; similar movie would be city slickers). Either way I hope I find that certain something today because I need to-do the Body for Life plan . (Link on the right side)
I guess I just lost the right stuff for today. If I can manage to wake up around 6am tomorrow I will wake my gym partner and successfully get to the gym and start up the Body for Life plan.

DKC

Merry Christmas

Like the title says Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays.

DKC

Change-a-roll-adope-la

First off you may remember three posts ago or my first post ever called "Hell Week" I posted about an 8-10 page paper I had to write the same week my step-father past. Well I got
Final Paper 12/24/04 1:11 AM B+

The Final Grade for that class was :
Final Course Grade 12/24/04 2:23 AM A-

My other class I got :
Date: Fri, 24 Dec 2004 13:21:04 -0500>> You received a B+ on the exam and a B+ for the course.

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  So WOOT!!!

On to today’s topic which I am sure is confusing:
Basically Change-a-roll-adope-la is my way of saying I am completely broke! It got so bad I had to roll some change and trade the change rolls in for cash. The bank just took my rolls and gave me cash no double counting or weighing which I though was strange and a small part of me said I got to try this with some "shaving" or batteries. I will not do that but really. However, I did not think the bank would be so trusting when handed $120.00 in change rolls. A tiny part of me wanted to yell at the lady and advise her everyone makes mistakes so she should double check me. At the time I just stared at her trying to Jedi mind trick why she could care less and took my cash and went on my way. On the bright side, I have a side job on Christmas Eve tonight. This basically means that I will take the money I make and pay another bill but that's not so bad considering its one more bill paid.

No worries or fear I will make it past this. I have had it much worse then this; in fact this is easy... I really only had to lower my 401K deduction so, when I get my next pay check I should get more take home. In January 05 there are 3 pay periods for me so that will help a ton. Finally and overall I am happy I have my health, a apartment, good friends, Becky Bird, and food.

Happy Holidays I will try to post tomorrow but no guarantees on the weekends especially this weekend and next.

DKC

Women in my past, present, future and The Thong

The title says it all.
Women in my life past, present, future and the always incredible even mighty but sometimes inappropriate Thong.

I must take a moment and look at the women in my past, present, and future. These ladies I am happy to say each was, is or will be unique yet each share(d) some similar qualities. For dating me has not been a easy task; one thing I have said historically is that I was a much better friend then someone to date. This has been true but I have gone to great lengths to correct this fault.

Note: I term dating as an event that occurs with two people that involves feelings of a romantic type. This is why I think you can date someone for as little as one day. Other then say a booty call, a no strings attached arrangement or a random situation were there are little or no feelings involved

Past:
I have been very fortunate to have crossed paths with a few special women some of which I have "dated" for as little as one day and one for as long as two years. Sadly, I am only really friendly with 2 of these women that I dated in the past. One of theses two women is dating someone happily off in the land of mountain's far away from NJ. The other lives quite close to me and funny enough I just recently offend her with an apathy that perhaps I should have rethought before voicing.

Present:
I am currently on Match, single and looking. Besides that I have been on one date with a girl and we are scheduled for more

Future:
There are women from time to time that I can visualize or fantasize about dating but these women may never come to attrition; especially if someone in the present works out.
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The Thong
The Thong needs a national day were people of the nation would thank the women that should and are wearing a Thong. The day would be called Thong Day of course.
I am skipping ahead a little so let me back up and say that a Thong is a wondrous piece of material that when worn by a women that should wear it will allow this women to look spectacular for those people that get the privilege to see the Thong on the appropriate women. Ahhh yes The Thong is very similar to Cinderella's Magic Glass Slipper or even Thor's Magic Thunder Hammer when worn by a women that deserves to wear The Thong.

It must be said that while The Thong is a powerful item that allows for greatness on the right women. Be WARNED that when The Thong is worn by a woman that does not have the privilege to wear The Thong then the price is great and Woe ought to be through-out all the lands. The Wretchedness of the poorly worn Thong is so grand that the sun itself should be clouded or better yet darkness should fall across all the lands.

DKC

"Beggar" a original writing

I wrote the following when I was a lot younger but I like it.

At some point in time everyone, including you will find something that can bring you to enlightenment.
Let me tell you how it could happen to you. One day you could walk up to a poor sleeping beggar on a lonely street and say to the beggar "how can you let yourself live like this?" The poor beggar will awaken and look up at you and say "You poor soul you have sight but can not see, you have ears but can not hear, and you have a mouth but cannot eat!" Even though this is not the answer you desire his words overwhelm you and your curiosity asks 'what does this mean?' The beggar smiles and says "you have been given an apple and except it as an apple. You have never tried to make the apple something else. This is because that you were told that an apple was an apple and so you hear, see, and taste just an apple; When you could have tasted a meal that could satisfy any hungry person. In my life when I am given an apple I see it for what it could be and not for what people usually see. Where you have always been afraid to see anything but an apple, I have seen beyond. So, this is the reason why I am the way, I am and you are the way you are."
With that answer the beggar will fall back to sleep and in the dark you will continue on your way. Sadly you will most likely not see the light even though the beggar had turned it on.

DKC

Hell Week

As you can guess from my title I recently had a week of life that was complete Hell!

During the week of Sunday December 12th to Saturday December 18th, I had so many things go wrong it was just a cruel joke of life that I am sure is a Karma payback of some kind.

Anyway,

• To start the week off I was sick with a cold that lasted the entire week plus some.
• My Step-Father the most dominant male figure in my life having been in my life since I was 3 years old past away on Monday December 13th to cancer.
• I had a 12 page multiple choice final due Friday December 17th. For those thinking I could have done the final earlier it was assigned Monday December 13th.
• I had an 8 to 10 pager paper due on Saturday December 18th. Also assigned on Monday December 13th.
• Finally, my Honda Civic 2001 EX Forest Green which I will not be done paying for until December 2005 got hit on the right side. Leaving me with a to-do of insurance and repair nightmare that is hanging over my head to date and will last for some time to come.

However, please note the weak ended with me having a date with a girl that I actually liked and yes kissed. I rarely kiss girls unless I find the girl attractive. I hope to be going out with her again. In addition, the girl was a good kisser to boot.

That was my hell week that ended with a cloud that had a silver lining aka me kissing a girl I liked and this is my First Blog post ever. I will write more soon and please free to comment.

DKC