Syracuse

Syracuse Well I am off to Syracuse this weekend weather permitting. The Girl I am seeing, my flying vulture formally know as Becky Bird my green checked conure and I. The 3 of us are going to drive to Syracuse to see my friend Tim who is home from the war in Iraq Tim-In-Iraqi-Update . This should be very cool considering I have not see Tim in 6 months? Also, this will be the first trip with the girl I am seeing.
We will see...I am feeling anxious about the weather so I might cancel. Besides that I am checking out a new therapist Friday AM and of course the chiropractor It will be a early long day tomorrow. I hope to write more before the weekend. If not be well and drop by Monday for the update.

DKC

Following Up

I have had a few questions about pervious posts so here are the answers.

Broken Key
The dermatologist says I have Psoriasis

Chess
To the best of my knowledge I am not a sore loser. I am just quiet after losing... admittedly I do not like to lose. Who does?

Sloth
{One of the Seven Deadly Sins}
1) Looked like a skinny, long haired homeless man in my dream.
2) We were chatting about what I had done that day. A good friend of mine Becoming a Nurse said "Of course you felt happy and relaxed talking to Sloth...not many people really like to work.
3) We had Chicken... so if you have diner with Sloth its a good idea to eat chicken.

Change-Roll-Adope-La
When I reduced my 401K deduction out of my pay my financial situation improved. I still need to budget.

Hell Week
I am still seeing the girl I posted about and things are going well.

My car is still not repaired from when I got hit but I suspect that will happen in due time or when the insurance company approves the repair.

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I am working on a better way to interact with me on this Blog but I have not see any method I like yet.

DKC

Amusement

Amusement can be defined as "entertainment: a diversion that holds the attention". I agree with this definition.

For most of my life after 14 years old my life has centered on how I can amuse myself, while not hurting anyone and if you have a good time while I am amusing myself everyone wins. That is basically 20 years of amusement and I have had a blast. I have tried to not be selfish or cocky but these things happen to everyone. I have occasionally acted recklessly, even heedless of other people, and some small times brilliantly {my own assessment}. I have learned a lot of things about amusing myself and its effects on people. In fact, almost everyone in my life alive or past has played a part in my amusement. Over the years, I have grown so that I can amuse myself without others being harmed mentally or physically and I think this is an achievement. If you think about it most anything can be considered amusement and at one time everything was amusement for me.

I feel very selfish while writing this but it is the truth and I do not think I am a bad person for it.

The point of this post is what befuddles my mind while I am busy amusing myself is how strangely people react. In my mind I would think of watching this guy {ME} amuse myself as a show or even a play? Some people can do this and a very small few people can play along. It’s the reactions of shock, confession and etc that boggle my mind. {Mind you I am pretty good at keeping the amusement effect to myself *my own assessment*}. These reactions are what helped me create my number 1 original quote on the side bar to the right "1. Do not scorn me because the most creative thing you have done today was set your alarm clock yesterday.”
Anyway, part of me understands why people react poorly but largely I have wonderment about what are these people doing over there or does anything make them smile? I go even further and think if they are not smiling why not does something else that will make them smile? ... It’s hard even strange for me to think that we have one life and not trying to enjoy it.
Recently, I have been slightly reclusive and depressed which is sadly affecting those closest to me. This has to do with my step father passing, money and a few other fun psychological issues... {All part of the cycle a person must have a down to have an up}...
However, while in this state I am still trying to amuse myself...

Wrap it up Cazman {Long post today}
What I am trying to say is there are plenty of things that life is about but while doing most of them I think you should have a good time or why do it? Does my amusement really hurt you? Must you suck my energy go read The Celestine Prophecy and find your own energy to ruin or go wilt a bush ... something other then that glare or reaction that really just frustrates me and brings some people that are enjoying life down. Go to someone else's show ....my show no longer takes that close minded crap.

Man what a rant today...whew glad I got that one out.

Be Well,
DKC

Thanks for Nothing

Ever notice how people do not really say thanks for anything anymore. I go out of my way to thank people for ridiculous reasons. Its my own personal and private joke and I do find it funny.

So, thanks to all the people out there like DP for naming me Mankind years ago and being a great friend...I miss my friend DP. Also, thanks to all the wonderful people I worked with at PWC.

Thanks to GS for no real reason maybe just cause you spell your first name with two GG's and gave me a lot of feedback about my Sloth post.

Thanks to my chat friends and the two girls I forgot to mention in my post Women in my past, present, future and The Thong Both girls are in my past, one of them told me hey I am still your friend and I said o yeah we still aim chat the other just loves the rain (private joke) but we chat here and there as she pointed out as well.

Finally, thanks to everyone I forget to thank. If you know me you know I can hardly remember to spell my first name let alone thank you.
That's just it, be a little less rude today and
Thanks
Even if it is for nothing someone should thank you and you should thank someone.
DKC

Broken Key

I broke my key in the door to my apartment building last night. I just find that interesting, the key just ripped in my hand. Does not seem right a metal key in average shape no damage. I put it in the lock turned and it ripped like a hot knife cutting butter. There was no me yelling HULK SMASH key...not likely...but that might have been funny to yell out. I just find events like this weird. Like how did I rip a metal key and not mean to. Mind you had I tried I would still be there.

I have not blogged in a few days because I am trying to find my determination. I am not sure if playing DOTA in Warcraft 3 is helping me but I have traveled down this road before and its a matter of time before I find that something that makes me GO.

Things are going well with that girl I mentioned in Hell Week. Its strange to like someone and have them like you in return. Some part of me wants to ask what is the matter with her or me {smile}. I am taking it slow with this girl, enjoying her company.

Not everything is strange to me these topics are thats why I write them I find them interesting or unique.

A best friend of mine named Tim that was in Iraq serving our country is home safe. I blogged about him Tim-In-Iraqi-Update & Iraqi.

Thank God!

Going to the dermatologist tomorrow. I am sick of my finger tips cracking.

That's all I have to say for now because I am mentally tired.

DKC

Chess

I have played chess for years was even part of the USFC nationally rated 1300. One day many years ago I am playing these guys who were a bunch of pawn pushers for the USFC. A pawn pusher means they would win via pawn position and having one or two extra pawns. This style of playing always drained me and made me feel like I was playing against a book.
Anyway, while playing the last guy he falls down and has a heart attack, dies shortly after never seeing another thing but my silly chess game. This bothered me for many years and made me not want to play.

Recently, I have played a few games some even at work but my coworkers think I get mad at losing. I guess this is kind of true, I am use to playing a game win or loss and playing another. I am not a fan of speed chess or anything like that and above all I get very focused and serious when I play even when I lose. VERY unlike me for those that know me.

Today I lost a chess game and I went right back to work while my coworkers said I was mad. Meanwhile I was not mad that I know just focused on the after thoughts of the game and mistakes I made and that I needed to start working again.

Anyway, this teasing drove me to decide to not play again at work perhaps that makes me a baby but really I do not need to be told I am angry even if I am cause most people know being told your angry just makes it worse.

Be well, Live Strong.
DKC

Sloth

I had a strange dream last night. I was having dinner and Sloth one of the seven deadly sins was eating with me. We were having a pleasant conversation about nothing I can remember except I felt strangely happy and good. Sloth asks me if having dinner with it makes me any worse of a person or does having dinner make Sloth any better of a sin. I replied that I doubt a simple dinner could change anything at all especially the very nature of Sloth. Sloth said then maybe the dinner changed me.

I woke up shortly after very confessed. I also figured that if I had dinner with Sloth that I would indeed change as a person even though its just simple dinner. Overall what scares me is did I have the dream cause I am being Sloth like in my life.

Besides the dream I will be writing about my past new years resolutions and this years new resolutions.

Seven Deadly Sins

DKC